If there is anything in your lifetime that you regret and could take back and if so what?
I am sure there are lots of things I could have/should have done differently and better, but one in particular comes to mind. Usually, I am a basically nice person (I hear my siblings raising a hue and cry) and the mistakes I make are usually at least well intentioned, if not well judged. The sad, sad story I am going to tell, however, is one time I was blatantly selfish and knowingly uncaring about someone else's feelings. That is why I would want to take it back, not just because I was caught! Although, I have to admit that being caught definitely seared the experience more deeply into my consciousness.
So, here I was at college, or the Happy Hunting Ground, as some called it. I was young and (I now this just sounds like a lame excuse) immature. I met a young man at a friend's party named Andy, let's call him Andy "A". Can you see where this is heading? He thought I was cute, asked my friend for my phone # and called to ask me out for Friday. He seemed nice enough in a sort of nondescript way (I'm immature, remember?) and I had no plans, so I agreed. Friday came along and the guy in my apartment complex that I had a huge crush on, Andy "B", finally got around to asking me out, FOR THAT NIGHT, to a dance on campus. Ugh!! I am embarrassed to say I hardly hesitated before I said, "Yes" and rushed home to plan my outfit.
Once I got that done, I called Andy "A" and told him "something came up" and I couldn't make it to our date, much to the disgust of my smarter, more mature, kinder, and all around better roommates.
Why did I do it? Andy "A" was probably a fascinating person, but I didn't even give him a chance. I was so selfish. I wish I could go back and do it over again. I wish I could listen to Andy "A" tell me about his hometown, or his major, or anything, but, no, I threw it all away in pursuit of Andy "B", who was nice enough, but definitely a flitter. I was just the flavor of the week to him, and I hurt someone else's feelings for that?!? Dumb, dumb, dumb!
Anyway, to top it all off, (you have probably guessed) Andy "A" decided since he was stood up that night to go to a dance on campus. Yep, the same dance Andy "B" took me to. It served me right. Part of the reason I feel so bad is the feeling that I was judging both of these men superficially and there were depths to Andy "A" that I didn't take the time to delve into. I got a glimpse of his character when he came and said,"hello" to me and my date. He was so polite when he had every right to be rude or at least confront me. I was stuck timidly introducing Andy to Andy. I was so embarrassed and I certainly deserved to be. I wish I could tell him I am sorry I was a jerk. I don't remember if I ever tried to apologize, or was too embarrassed to face him (more likely), but now I don't even remember his last name.
So, here I was at college, or the Happy Hunting Ground, as some called it. I was young and (I now this just sounds like a lame excuse) immature. I met a young man at a friend's party named Andy, let's call him Andy "A". Can you see where this is heading? He thought I was cute, asked my friend for my phone # and called to ask me out for Friday. He seemed nice enough in a sort of nondescript way (I'm immature, remember?) and I had no plans, so I agreed. Friday came along and the guy in my apartment complex that I had a huge crush on, Andy "B", finally got around to asking me out, FOR THAT NIGHT, to a dance on campus. Ugh!! I am embarrassed to say I hardly hesitated before I said, "Yes" and rushed home to plan my outfit.
Once I got that done, I called Andy "A" and told him "something came up" and I couldn't make it to our date, much to the disgust of my smarter, more mature, kinder, and all around better roommates.
Why did I do it? Andy "A" was probably a fascinating person, but I didn't even give him a chance. I was so selfish. I wish I could go back and do it over again. I wish I could listen to Andy "A" tell me about his hometown, or his major, or anything, but, no, I threw it all away in pursuit of Andy "B", who was nice enough, but definitely a flitter. I was just the flavor of the week to him, and I hurt someone else's feelings for that?!? Dumb, dumb, dumb!
Anyway, to top it all off, (you have probably guessed) Andy "A" decided since he was stood up that night to go to a dance on campus. Yep, the same dance Andy "B" took me to. It served me right. Part of the reason I feel so bad is the feeling that I was judging both of these men superficially and there were depths to Andy "A" that I didn't take the time to delve into. I got a glimpse of his character when he came and said,"hello" to me and my date. He was so polite when he had every right to be rude or at least confront me. I was stuck timidly introducing Andy to Andy. I was so embarrassed and I certainly deserved to be. I wish I could tell him I am sorry I was a jerk. I don't remember if I ever tried to apologize, or was too embarrassed to face him (more likely), but now I don't even remember his last name.
Are you out there, Andy? I'm sorry!!!
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